April

This morning, I stepped on the scales looked down, did a double take, stepped off the scales, stepped back onto the scales, looked down again.

Three pounds gained.  Three pounds.

My initial thoughts were WTF.  Pre-coffee, this plain just pissed me off.  I ran twice, beat my 3 mile barrier, worked out two other times, ate better than I have in a while and gained three pounds?  Screw this.

Then, I thought again.  I went out to lunch yesterday.  Yes, I got a salmon salad and soup.  Yes, I told them to hold the bacon (after visiting Christy last November, bacon is just not appetizing to me.  Can’t imagine WHY.), but I didn’t tell them to hold the cheese.  Or the corn.  I did have a few pieces of that yummy bread, too. Well, I got tomato soup, oh wait, it was tomato CHEDDAR.  DAMN.

My body holds onto water weight like nobody’s business, so just that “little bit” of cheese was enough for my scale to show that big of a difference.

My point is that even when you think you MAY have had a great week, I’ll bet there is something that has affected your weigh-in.  I’ll bet that if you think about it hard enough, you’ll find some place in your routine where you are “off”.  It could be your food or maybe your work out has become too routine for your body, or you could be stressed to the max (you do know that stress can cause you to hold onto weight, right?)

All that said, that three pound gain was enough to foul my mood for quite a while.  A few people tried to reach out, I pushed back.  All I could see for hours was that three pound gain.  Even though I knew where I had gone wrong and I know how to fix it, all I saw in my head was +3.  Luckily for all you fine people, someone got an LOL out of me and my bad mood was ruined.

And you know, all of those who were trying to tell me that I was real, I was human, we’re not perfect, and to move on were right.

It’s okay to be bummed about a gain, it’s okay to brood about it for a while, but to you can’t hang onto it.  And if you feel like it’s holding onto you (like I was today), then find a friend, a sister, SOMEONE who will drag you back out of it, figure out where you went wrong, and fix it.

That’s what I’m going to do.